Argh!

Can't take it anymore.

No choice. =D




Habis.....

Can't wait for it....hmmm...

So many to choose from..

=D

'...Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Kau adalah Tuhan semesta alam. Aku merayu kepada Engkau ya Allah.
Tenangkan fikiran dan hati dia ya Allah. Jauhilah dia daripada malapetaka dan balak ya Allah. Jauhilah dia dari fitnah-fitnah dunia ya Allah. Jauhilah dia dari azab kubur ya Allah. Jauhilah dia dari azab api neraka ya Allah. Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa dia ya Allah. Berikanlah dia kebahagiaan ya Allah....'


All that I prayed for. 5 times a day. Everyday.


love you..

Hais.

So today and yesterday, RP. Study.


Still holding on. =D

I need a remedy for myself.

But I only need the same one.

And it's missing...

*seriously sad face*



just how long can I wait?..

CURRENT CHALLENGES IN LIFE


1. Electronics.
2. Auto CAD.
3. Guitar.
4. Stamina.
5. Body mass.
6. Self Defence skills.
7. Time

8. Waiting for that 71 year old girl...... :D

ok uh.

so far ok uh.

NEED TO LEARN HOW TO SAVE TIME.

To hell with Electronics module. It's like so hard.

What else uh?

Tmr 8am to 12pm. Then all of them like going home. Idk what to do. Hais.

:(

Hey:)

Well I hope that you'll be happier:)

and don't worry, I'm still there for you. No matter what.

And I have a song dedicated to you.

It's my favourite song from Silverstein. Yes, among all of the songs from Silverstein, this one is my favourite.

Well I think the lyrics hold a lot of meaning. AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY I CAN PLAY THIS SONG. I HAVE BEEN LAZY TO TOUCH MY GUITAR, NOW COVERED WITH DUST. HAHA!

I hope you enjoy it too. And remember that I'm still there for you.


(anyways, if the mixpod shit doesn't work, you don't mind checking this song out on youtube? thanks:D)


Call It Karma
Silverstein

Discovering the Waterfront


Blame it on the weather, but I'm a mess
And this February darkness has me hating everyone
And I know I need your comfort, but this drama makes me sick
And the longer I lay here, I know it's harder to get up
Without you

(chorus)
Lose another day here
Lose another year here
I'm with you

Finally, something out there, that's making sense
And it's just another trend carefully hidden in your dress
And this cycles never ending, and this fashions overdone
And the further that I run away, the further I'll come back
To shelter...

(chorus)

Lose another day here
Lose another year here
I'm with you

You are the fire, on my apartment floor
Sixteen stories, I'd rather burn then fall
And it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
It's just the turn of a card



Lose another day here
Lose another year here
I'm with you

You are the fire, on my apartment floor
Sixteen stories, I'd rather burn then fall
And it isn't fate, that took us all by storm
It's just the turn of a card

Goodbye old friend
Goodbye goodnight
I'll move on
You'll call it fate, I'll call it karma
We had our time, it was fun
While it lasted

I'll look back, (look back)
With honor
And no regrets
I won't be mad, won't feel bad
These memories (these memories)
Will never leave me
Don't be sad
Cause life goes on, life goes on
It's getting too late (too late)
Tomorrow is here

:D

I hope I can sleep through tonight.

The past few nights had been tough for me.

Seriously sad face.

Hey,

sorry guys but I don't feel like posting about the SP party.

No mood and all.

I found the easiest way to lose weight - be sad.

Yes, I've lost weight. I haven't been eating much. And I can't sleep well.
I'm not surprised if my face gets more fuglier. rofls.

I have a lot of things going through my mind. And I don't feel like doing anything much.

Looking forward to Monday. I need to, make things right.

I hate myself.

My Ustaz once told me, that God sets up test for Man. It is up to themselves to either succeed or fail.


I'm facing one right now. And I know that, God's willing, I'll get through this one.

I've failed 2 times before. But not this time.








I WON'T GIVE UP ON YOU. WE'VE PROMISED.

Omg. My neck hurts so bad. I lost my voice.

Headbang, scream, dance.

One hell of a party last night.
I'll blog more about it tmr.

I need a break.

OUCH!


This should be nothing
to a love like what we got

Can't sleep well. I woke up at 5? around there. Before that I slept at 1 am. My mind was disturbed.

So when I woke up, I remembered that today is orientation. Geez. Have to like bathe and stuff. Took some time to choose what clothes to wear. OH GOD, I need more clothes.

So I walked to Admiralty and ate at Macdonalds first. Then went up the MRT and board the train and met Amir, Nabil, Faris, Azizul at Marsiling. So yeah, board the train to Dover.

When we reached Dover, OH GOD. It was packed with 'freshies'. OMG I feel insulted with the term 'freshies'. LOLOLOL

We waited for Safwan and Syirah at Dover in front of the 7-11 store.
And then they came. Haha, all of us under the same school. The School Of Mechanical and Aeronautical Engineering (SMAE).

So it was already 8? I think:) and we all went into the convention center and sat in the huge theater and watch performances and stuff. There were breaks at certain intervals.

Then it came to 2pm. We have to be separated. Im in a class. Nab in a class. Amir in a class. Syirah in a class. Faris and Zul in a class. NOT FAIR! haha:D

So we went to our classrooms. And the personal tutor of my class is Mrs Lim S Kuan.

Hais. Reminds me of Mrs Whelan. And I made a lot of friends:D

Haha. There was this one guy who came all the way from Myanmar. His name is Yar Naung. He told me to just call him Orion. LOL!

And I made friends with a guy called Amar. I think he's a good friend ;D.

Erm other wacky ones that I think I can get high with might be Dzafir. Haha.
Well, there's an Indian guy, he's Amann.
Erm, a chinese malay, Alim.

And a few more:D

I think my time will be great in SP.

Then after that at like 3, there was a guided tour to the SP Graduates Guild. LMAO.
That facility is like freakin expensive. I won't subscribe to it.
Hais.
After that, I went to solat Zuhur with my friend Amar. I seriously think that he's a good friend. I'm really grateful that there is someone like him in my class.

Then after solat, Amar when home first. I called the other guys to solat first. And after that, we went home together.
I think I reached home like 6? Haha.


Well tmr? SP flag day. From like 7.30am to like 4pm? Yup. 7.30am at Raffles place. DAMN.
EARLY IN THE MORNING SIA.

AND GOD DAMN. I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD GO TO THE PARTY AFTER THE FLAG DAY. WELL ALL FRESHMEN WILL BE THERE. AND IT ENDS AT FRIGGIN 9PM.
AND IT'S MY ONCE CHANCE TO GET HIGH. AND MAYBE START A GOD DAMN MOSH.
but part of me like don't want to go.


Well. I've checked my timetable. I think it's okay la.

I can't wait to start. And go to RP after school everyday to *ehem* :D

Hey anyways, I know that you're reading this.
And I want you to know that I love you. No matter what.
Can't wait to see you this Friday. I miss you badly.

Love.

I waited all day. A boring day. Just to get your full and complete attention.
Turns out that you're busy with what you rather be doing.

Hais.

I feel really sad.

Damn. It's only 11.15 am.

I am SOOOOO bored.

I miss someone actually. I hope she's having fun:)

Well, I don't have to go to school today. Cos tmr's the day.

I think I'm meeting up with Nabil, Amir, Faris, Safwan and Azizul at Marsiling MRT.
Then get to school together:)
Be there by 8?
yup. From 8 to 12 or 2(i can't remember) Sit at the theater at the convention centre and watch performance and stuff. Then a guided tour at SP and make new friends and stuff and meet the class tutors. :D

Honestly I can't wait actually.

Rather than sitting at home with nothing to do
and missing someone of course.

HEYS!

So today was the 'first' day of school.

Well, I met up with Nabil and Syafiq and went to SP together.
Me and Nab in same course so yeah. But our class is beside each other. So I'm in the first class, he's in second.
Syafiq went to his school's orientation. I think school of Digital Media or something like that?:D

So me and Nab took Mechanical Engineering, under the School Of Mechanical And Aeronautical Engineering.

We had to report to T171A Lecture theater at 12.45. And then we were brought to our classrooms.

Had a lecture on how to use the SP network system (SPICE). I forgot what the abbreviation stands for:P

So I don't know anyone in my class. A class of 20 or 21 i think. 2 girls, the rest guys.
Today wasn't the day to make friends.

So I can't wait (maybe) for Wednesday. I think it's when you interact with other ppl and stuff:D

And maybe take pics:D

I just don't understand.

Why?

I'll find you out

HEE. 7th floor of Illuma = sky.





They got the hot girl. LOL

I need a new acoustic guitar. This one's getting old. (Sorry Sally *sad face*).

I think I'm getting one with a cut off. So it'll be easier to reach the 12th frets onwards.

And I need new electric guitar strings. The strings rust so fast like cat.
Even cat don't rust. (well duh, they rot, not rust)

ok ok. I don't know when I'm getting them.

I still have problems with the artificial/pinch harmonics.

sad face seriously.

Baby! why are you doing this to me?
Sweetheart! are those your eyes staring straight back at me?
Angel! I see your smile everywhere!
Darling! stop!

Night falls and I'm running in circles wo-oh-oh!
I'm being chased by my imagination wo-oh-oh!

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
NO ONE DESERVES TO LIVE LIKE THIS!
TellmeI'mforgivensayyou'llalwaysbemine
Saythateverythingisover,tellmeI'mfine...
NO ONE DESERVES TO LIVE LIKE THIS!


I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me...

NIGHT AS DARK AS MY THOUGHTS
SETS THE SCENE FOR MY RETURN
LIGHTNING NIPS AT MY HEELS
AS I RACE HOME
WEARILY I STAGGER
TOWARDS THE SONG OF HER PALE VOICE
DEMONS JEER MY ATTEMPT
TO BE FREE

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
NO ONE DESERVES TO LIVE LIKE THIS!
TellmeI'mforgivensayyou'llalwaysbemine
Saythateverythingisover,tellmeI'mfine...
NO ONE DESERVES TO LIVE LIKE THIS!


I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight its just you and me...

Windows cast her gentle reflection
Her somber silhouette dances for me

Look at you, you miserable fool!
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the Devils door!

I'VE BEEN EXPECTING YOU FOR SOME TIME, SIR
ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF
I'M THE ONE WHO PULLS ON ALL THE STRINGS, SON
YOU'RE LUCKY I DIDN'T KILL YOU WHERE YOU STAND!


THIS CAN'T BE REAL
Tonight I raise my glass
THERE'S NOTHING LEFT
For I know its time to move on
ALL HOPE HAS FAILED
My patience will not last
I'VE LOST MY SOUL
Tomorrow I will be gone

still learning that method.

GEEZ IT'S PRETTY HARD!!!!!!!!!


I touched your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me

Damn I'm bored.

Was supposed to watch a movie today, but some people can't. :(

What to do now??

Geez. How do all guitar players pull off an artificial harmonic so fast?
They are like playing fast rifts and in the middle of it they pull of an artificial harmonic.

HOW DO THEY DO THAT???

When you're on your way down
(Through the clouds)
And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

And that's more than you'll know

Don't let them say you ain't beautiful